It's been nearly a month since I've posted anything.... and to be honest my resolve is torn!!. I haven't been motivated to write anything because I've fallen back into a depression. And if I force it then its, fake... so I feel my lackluster "job/conquest" is fizzled itself out. I'm gonna be 30 in a few days and honestly that scares the shit out of me. I was told 10 years and I would eventually start deteriorating.... a few days from now will be exactly 9 years I've had HIV, and at 41 my father ultimately committed suicide due to his illnesses..... mental, physical, and self-induced!! He had HEP C which isn't much different than HIV. From drugs and tattoos. Go figure!!! "And the child will always follow in the father's footsteps"... anyways, I'm still here people, just having one of those moments in life!!!
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